Health Care Team Challenge: thankful for the team I worked with. We didn’t win but we sure as well worked really well together. Couldn’t ask for more.
Month: February 2016
Gratitude: 1/22/16
Take ownership.
In other news, I’m grateful for PN. I’m very excited for her next chapter in life. It’s going to bring a lot of challenges but a lot of rewards for the both of us.
Gratitude: 1/19/2016
There’s always something to be grateful for. For example,leg cramps on Leg Day –> Try new work-outs (i.e. Trap Bar Deadlifts: easier grip, more back emphasis).
Gratitude: 2/18/16
Negative self-talk creeps up sometimes. I don’t know why it does. It’s never factual, so why do I let it affect me? I can catch myself thinking these negative thoughts and consciously tell myself that they’re not real. I’d be able to step away from them, but they find their way back somehow – albeit, weaker each time. I need to strengthen my mental fortitude.
Gratitude: 2/18
It’s been over a week since my last entry. A very lovely weekend with PN. I love her tremendously. I’m excited about our present and our future. How did I get so lucky? I don’t want to say we complete each other because that takes away from the fact that we’re both whole people already, but I’ll say that we are blessed to experience life on a whole other level – on a higher dimension – because we have each other. For me, to be as young as I am but to feel like I have a deep understanding of my life comes from the fact that I have someone who provides me an aura of safety to do just that. I hope to be providing that same sense of security for her.
I strive to develop myself to give more of myself to live fully, and repeat.
Gratitude: 2/10
Today was a good day. Got punched in the face but I also got to test out how powerful my kicks are now – I’m satisfied. Tomorrow will be a great day.
Notes for SNPhA:
- Upgrade selection process
- Upgrade elections
- Review events from this year and last
- Wait on CG to get back on events –> provide to SNPhA
Gratitude: 2/9/2016
Why do I want to do residency? Simply put, I want to keep my options open. I want to be able to work together in a team to solve complex cases. I want meaningful interactions with my patients. I want to be an expert in my field. I want to have the flexibility to be able to teach as well. I want to be surrounded by bright minds and the newest technology. I want to make a positive impact for my patients. I want to be able to develop meaningful projects. I want upward mobility. This is a vague image in the works.
The Ideal Pharmacy Resident
- Clinical Knowledge
- Self-awareness and commitment to improvement
- Service Orientation
- Pride in the profession
- Covenantal relationship with the client
- Creativity and innovation
- Conscience and trustworthiness
- Time management and prioritization
- Ethically sound decision making
- Leadership
- Attainment of a balanced life
2/8/16: Letter to my 25 year old self – DONT read until 2/6/2017
Current Cumulative: 75th percentile (Top 25%), CAP 94%;
Last semester (Fall 2015): Rank 19; Grade: 96%
Aiming for residency. Grades and Leadership are locked down. Focus on acquiring research and more hospital experience. From there, you’ll be looking good.
Goal: Grades aren’t everything. Living a full and balanced life is. Be a good man, a good son, a good brother, a good boyfriend. Be selfless, be boundless, be a leader. Stay hungry, stay driven, but stay humble. Have courage and tenacity. Have an open heart and open ears, and be slow to judgement. Remove yourself from your biases and listen wholeheartedly.
Your family and PN deserve only the best of you. Invest all your energy into becoming the best person you can be…for them. Do it for your community as well. You have such an extremely fortunate life – good health and spiritual wealth. Share it with others, especially those less fortunate than yourself. Be open and be brave, and have faith. Give yourself to God and strive to always be a better, more caring person. You only get one chance at life, so take full ownership of it. Do all that and I assure everything will fall into the right place.
As a son, always continue to make your parents proud. But more importantly, always show that you care and that you’re forever grateful for their relentless support in raising you to become the man you are today. Never forget your roots.
As a brother, be supportive. Let your siblings know that you’re always going to be there for them. That at the end of the day, you’ll always have their back. Be that support system so that they can strive to achieve their dreams. Let them know that you truly do care about them.
As a boyfriend, be open and selfless for PN. Let her know everyday how much you love her and care for her. Be her anchor so that she feel safe to be boundless herself. Listen to her with your whole heart and – more important than understanding – feel with her. Let her know that you respect every aspect of her. That you love every part of her. Let her know that you’ll always be there for her – physically, mentally, and spiritually. Give her the support so that she can be strong, confident, and brave. Always encourage her to pursue her endeavors, even if it doesn’t involve you. You love her more than you love the idea of “us”. Provide her the support so that she can strive to be the best person she can be. And it’s okay to let her know when she is wrong, but always let her know that there’s never anything wrong with her. Remind her everyday that she is perfect…for you.
Gratitude: 2/6/2016
It’s been a few days since my last post.
Letter from my 23 y.o. self to my 24 y.o. self. I finally read it today:
23 now. Gonna be running for president of SNPhA. Was contemplating among chair or even president in PPSO but realized I’ve been envisioning taking SNPhA to new heights with my leadership. I trust myself to make SNPhA big. Competitive. Lead it to a new direction. Idealist.
Goals. Have a sense of direction. Accept yourself for who you are, totally. You’re quiet, but not timid. Loud, but not through words. Quiet confidence is the key. Know yourself, your strengths and your weaknesses. Know your capacity and capabilities. Know that you don’t know everything, and there are always multiple ways to look at things – some ways you may never consider. But listen.
Believe in yourself. Stand up for the truth, you’re truth, and justice for yourself and for others. The theme to focus on is conviction. Have conviction in what you believe or say. Even when it’s wrong, fail with glory…and learn from it. There’s a difference between conviction and arrogance. It’s believing in yourself and your values vs. having a superficial superiority complex to mask insecurity.
Remember, it’s all perception. Choose your actions and cultivate will.
Pursue your passions, your interests. Do what you love to do and everything will fall into place. Be a better man, always.
You’re reserved but try to be a little more open. Live passionately. Live with enthusiasm and a sense of urgency. But remember to slow down sometimes. Enjoy the present moment more and learn to be forevermore grateful for everyone and everything positive in your life… perhaps even the negatives too because they’re the ones who’ve taught you the hard and valuable lessons in life, and they’re the ones who shaped you into the person you are today.
Be alive.
When you’re 24, I see you having peace with yourself. Serenity, internally. Keep doing you although you may be the only one doing the things that make you happy. Cultivate your passion, your purpose. Remember you’re just not living for yourself. You’re doing this for family and Pearl. Develop yourself to be a positive catalyst in the world.
Versus the letter from my 22 y.o. self to my 23 y.o. self:
Hey Vince,
It’s me, your 22 year old self. Today is 9/23. It’s a Tuesday. There was no class today because the tobacco cessation practice was yesterday. You played basketball last night with Dan, Sunny, and others. I surely hope you’re a lot better at basketball now… Today has been a pretty slow day because, well, you’re awesome at getting things done. Yeah, you could’ve gotten more things done but nothing is urgently due right now. You’re sitting pretty secure at the moment. You’re turning 23 in about 5 months so it’ll be interesting to see how much you’ve changed. You better change and be better…
I hope that you’ll be more outgoing and more fearless. More involved and more disciplined. How about something new? How about more open to Pearl about your feelings and letting her know every single time she’s on your mind. Make her feel secure and beautiful everyday. As a matter of fact, start that now. Every day.
Things that you will have accomplished:
1. Expanding network
2. Highly involved in clubs
3. Become a more efficient human being
4. Be more kind
Glad to be on the right track.
Reflection/Speculation 